This is the beginning of my healing. When I saw your face I knew you were the one I was waiting for--------a guiding light in a world gone mad. Your love penetrated my heart and the hard inner barriers began melting. Nothing had worked before and I tried everything. One look from you was all it took; I began to open, soften, long forgotten warmth entered my heart. Miracle! As I look back and at my present situation, I have days that I am angered by what I have allowed to become of me. Circumstances, situations, and systems caused me to shut down. The anger, for the most part, is starting to pass and I sense myself moving beyond it; gaining some precious distance from it. I am focusing on getting well, and am grateful for what has come my way. It is interesting to look at what triggers my anger because it reveals a clear picture of what repels me. Mostly it is the lack of heart and fairness that has filtered through our civilization and caused a sickness. How does it manifest? Systems, including political, education, medical, insurance, construction, judiciary, etc. which rule through fear for their own material gain and power and without care or compassion for the individual, the whole or the long term effects. There is a widespread lack of integrity and ethics in meeting obligations and promises within industries, such as the insurance, medical, building industry. Most people hold an almost exclusive focus on the mental to the exclusion of all else where competition is all pervasive and so out of balance without any possible humane response to customers or clients. Heartless---all these systems are an example of the cold light of mind without the healthy balance of heart based values. There is universal exploitation of the masses and the vulnerable, such as the weak, sick, disabled, uneducated, and failure to protect young innocent children through an overtaxed, uncaring judiciary system; discrimination in jobs by virtue of age, gender, monetary compensation etc. Mammoth antiquated systems, such as education and medical, which because of denial, and/or disregard for the long-term betterment of the whole, refuse to move forward and change; out of control escalating costs affecting the quality of life for individuals within families; a society which has been primarily male dominant and where males have believed they are God’s gift to society, they are superior to the female counterpart, they are entitled, and they regard women as second class citizens worthy of no respect and no honor and whose sole role function is to be in servitude, and through arrogance or denial, have devalued, dehumanized, abused, and down played the worth of women, as well as abused and traumatized young children to sex trade and slave trade for material gain. Surely we can all do better than this! In fact, take a long hard look at the sorry state of so many women in so many cultures throughout the world, and you will come to know and realize that this is a reflection of this sick heartlessness. I thank the Eternal Spirit everyday that God has sent us a female Aquarian Avatar, for this surely says it all-------this is the Infinite Wisdom of our Creator. We must have balance.

 

Barbara Keating